Mel B says she will always carry “guilt and shame” as a survivor of domestic abuse. The Spice Girl’s ex-husband Stephen Belafonte was abusive and controlling during their marriage – which ended in December 2017 – and she was recently awarded an MBE for her work with Women’s Aid. And while the 47-year-old pop star found it “cathartic” penning her memoir ‘Brutally Honest’ about the turmoil she went through, she admits those feelings are with you “for the rest of your life”. The ‘Viva Forever’ hitmaker said of the tome: “For me, it was the celebration that I was no longer living a life of being s…